Sorry for my english.
The first day. Fucked up.
More than a day without sleep, a day without food. Mad queue. Hellish loud screeches of girls during a random dance. There were few fatty girls. Quite a lot of okay-look schoolgirls, several adult aunts and uncles. It was boring during the day, I did not know where to put myself, but then the administrator of the CLC group came and I hung out with her. Closer to the concert, it got worse. I had a good place at the concert, no one blocked the view. Here I failed, did not save the battery, it turned out that I had a good camera, but I didn’t do fancam, okay, fuck it. Again hellish squeals, the fucking usless russian “star” about which no one asked. Finally CLC. Hell yeah what squeals. They performed gorgeous, tried to speak Russian. 4 songs. We cheerfully and loudly sang along to simple fragments. Elkie legs oohhh. After CLC left, I crawled to the medical post. Some meds and I went to my friend to spend the night.
While the queue was standing I went to smoke to the side, taxi drivers came up and asked what was going on, they had never seen such a big crowd.
Second day. Much better than I expected.
I ate, washed, slept. Physically normal already. This time my friend was with me. While fangirls squealed on gaypop fansigh, we had a short photo shoot for my sighs. Oh yes, on the first day I managed to go to the store and buy the devil’s horns for myself and the CLC admin in order to at least be remembered by the girls, since the “Devil” comeback. She prepared gifts, I helped her to hold. The host noted that there were some guys on the CLC. Expected, hehe.
The legs were shaking. Gifts were handed over, with them is my letter to Elkie, lol. I was not ready mentally. The brain barely worked. Stuttering somehow spoke English. In short, the scheme was simple: high, my name is semmy, thanks for the perfomance, I love you, then touching... Eunbin was the first to write the names of fans in Hangeul. Elkie shook my hand when I said the name, lol. I also added "you are so beautiful". I’m fucking original, huh? Seungyeon and Yeeun, iirc, just take my hands first. It was possible to stand with them holding hands, but I went further on autopilot, fuck me, fucked up. Yeeun whispered "spasibo", so cute, uh. “you are very cute” I said to Yujin. For some reason Seunghee talked listlessly with me, most likely she could not understand my speech. I asked Sorn to write the nickname of the admin of the CLC discord, as a result she wrote incorrectly. Looks like I had a bad english speech. In the end I forgot to take a picture against the background of girls, well, fuck it.
There were two men among us, one 42, and the other 35 yo. Probably the oldest kpopfan in Russia. Some guys came up and interviewed him. The people gathered decently. The girls squealed, we all together periodically sang along to the songs that were playing in the background. The host said "goddess" ones, fun moment. About the host should be said separately. Great man. Elegantly held the event.
Then we went to catch CLC on the street. Staff drove us a little. Here I did the fancam. I also saw CLC fan sites. Four fat below me growth, well, in principle, expected. In fact, it's just awesome that they were going around everywhere with cameras because they took a bunch of cool pics.
CLC took gifts, on Twitter already proofs with our pillows, hell yeah, it’s fucking amazing.
In general, the dream came true. Here is just one moment all overshadowed. Some kind of crap with my psyche. It was as if a defensive reaction had worked and blocked emotions at a certain level. I dont feel full joy and happiness. Fuck. Perhaps they will return and I should live a few more years, if only for their sake. Maybe on the next fansigh I will be in better condition.
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